Sex - Specter

Sex. This is something that often enters into my mind, so elusive, yet… Easy to get it is if you are willing to pay the right price. Though these aren’t the thoughts on sex my head is plagued with. The thoughts of sex my mind is plagued with are that of monogamy or polygamy without multiple wives, that is a normal life or that of a swinger. I may not yet have felt the jealousy which I am sure I will need to get over with my first swinging mate. I fear it nonetheless, for it shall be great and overwhelming, but that will determine if that is really what I want or just a dream my body has concocted but my mind doesn’t want to endure.

To get a woman, multiple women as all men want, is a wonderful thing. Yet I feel as if I would be truly happy with one woman, but she may not just want me. I don’t think it would be wrong to let this woman go out for sex. As long as it is just sex. For me and this woman will be friends first (That is where my love for her will stem from) and sex partners second. She will feel the fruits of my loins as I will bathe in hers. Yet I don’t feel she should be tied to me alone for to long nor me to her. Yet sometimes I feel as if I could survive that quite peacefully as sex is sex. I just don’t ever want to have to fight back the temptation. As I know when I return home that night she will be there for me. Not the man she slept with.

I will later write on these things. But this I feel, just now, will be my first entry into a daily journal. Some pieces I may publish on a blog or create entries on youtube for visual confirmation of my thoughts. Some in an art form of some kind, be it sketch, pastel work, or video. Just a way to pool all my daily thoughts into some form of order and a way to free write before or after I embark on this story I foresee to be great in many ways. This story as of now will be a long story not short, though I do intend to add short stories along the way to liven up the story, but it will display the daily life of a spectre. Someone who is not really dead yet can take the form of a ghost like figure.

He will be in a war-torn America (Though this is just the thought of where the story will begin) after Marshall Law was declared after the great destruction of capitalism in this country and nuclear attacks launched from within our own borders. After the US dollar has become the Amaro and combined with all the North American countries. Mexico and Canada.

I feel the need to play some Pokemon Leaf Green on breaks from free writing now in this journal as well as starting to free write the story. That need is arising now :P So I will go CATCH EM’ ALL now!!! I GOTTA CATH EM’ ALL!!! POKEMON!!!

P.S.

The sex entry above was something I personally believe and feel myself and something I am trying to decide on my feelings for. One must try it first before I decide if it will be my passion. Though I think the main character of this story will be afflicted with these same desires and will get chances to test those theories out. Hey when you’re in an American Concentration camp in the Red Zone. You might as well fuck as much as possible so you can die with a smile on your face.

I thoroughly enjoyed writing this and I will edit it for grammar and other errors after POKEMON!

I’m growing Elated(In Every Sense of the Word)… I just saw some pictures I had of a girl I used to really like and it seems as if our friendship has slowly died away. I haven’t talked to her in eons and I feel the need to call her. First thing on my Agenda of tomorrow, Call Jenaya and see how she has been.

And I am baby sitting :P


- Jason
- September 20, 2008
- 10:14 PM